What do I do with a heart given to me stone cold?
When it wants to reel me in, make me stand at attention,
But it doesn't know how to hold
All day, the tears pour down
But all is silence, not a sound
And the apologies won't come
There is a steel wall that I can't get through
As hard as I try to call him back,
I am breathless in my effort
So empty am I of love
How my soul yearns for things to be loosed on Earth as they are above
I need the help of someone bigger than me
I need His eyes to see this tangled mess
How I want the earth to shift back into place again
Just let me without feigning touch your face
God never expected us to live this way
Oh Father help me in this fallen state
Where the pain is mind-numbing
And I don't know how to fix us
God, let the three-chord strand hold thick, You the creator, us just dust
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Goodness. Such raw, aching words are found here. May the Lord bless you and keep you, making you stronger in His love, dear one! May that three-cord strand grow stronger than ever.
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-Sarah
Sarah,
Deleteso nice to see you here! thanks for taking the time to write down some encouraging words for me. as it always goes with marriage, it grows slowly over time. thanking God He is with us in all our trials.
blessings,
Nacole
Hugs...love and prayers to you...light will come...you will see...feel...and hope will rise within you...You are loved by the most beautiful LOVE in the universe...I pray that liquid Love will pour down upon you...filling all all the soul holes...
ReplyDeletemuch love to you sweet nacole...
Ro,
Deletehey you! thank you for your continued support and encouragement. it is a light to me. just going through some hard trials over here with illness, children, life, marriage, you know...so thankful He is with us and never leaves us and His grace continues to pour over us. when i wrote this, it was a hard few days, but i do feel God filling all the soul holes of me! i contemplated whether to share it, but i know that honesty and vulnerability is the only way to heal and to heal others.
blessings, friend,
xoxo
Nacole
So sorry you are in a season of pain and heaviness. I just wrote about change and hope over at my place. Maybe it will encourage you. Pray you have relief from what weighs heavy soon. At just the right time. He always rescues us at just the right time.
ReplyDeletehi Shelley,
Deletethank you so much. yes, it has been a long season, but i cling to Him through all things. He is my hope. i went to your place and read--very encouraging. looking for hope, yes, this is something my heart says yes to.
blessings,
Nacole
We can't make it without Him, can we! That He gathers our tears, that He understands our grief, our struggle more than we do - and with Him, with Him in the mix - it makes all the difference for the end of each day and the beginning of the next! Beautiful, poignant poem,Nacole!
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Deleteso happy to see you here as always...and what a wise thing you have written here. you are always right and thank you so much.
blessings dear friend,
xoxo
Nacole
Nacole, that post took guts, girl! I've had similar struggles, and the Liar keeps whispering, "He's not listening." My soul knows better. My Daddy catches the tears, feels the pain, and pursues me at my weakest moment.
ReplyDeleteJust like He does for you.
And the answers will come. So many that they'll fall like rain and soak you to the skin. That's when you'll get to dance in the puddles and gaze at the rainbow.
Storms are never forever, but they can sure feel like it. Hold on girl, our Father calms the storms.
hi Layla,
Deleteoh so good to see you here. hmmm...its like salve to the soul when you say you have had similar struggles...thank you for that. i love this: "my Daddy cathches the tears, feels the pain, and pursues me at my weakest moment."
i will be carrying that in my heart this week. thank you, dear Layla.
blessings,
Nacole
oh friend. such an honest, broken post. i've prayed these prayers too, many times. may God hear you, and answer...
ReplyDeleteEmily,
Deleteits always a bit of heaven to see you here and to hear your words. you have such grace. that you've prayed these same prayers...thank you for that, friend.
blessings,
Nacole
love that us just dust...its got stickiness...and def thoughtful...feel you on the emotion too...and i know your prayers are heard...
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